Honey

Express yourself day this Friday. A gimmick the school came up with to make pupils cough up extra money to put it crudely. It works though, I thought it was a pretty cool idea. I hope plenty of people participate in their matching bathrobes and housewives get up. Or something.

I hope I won't chicken out... Maybe, if I stop being fat and ugly, I'll put up pictures.

Study. Need. To. Study.

I should tattoo that into my brain with indelible ink. Gentle reminders will not suffice any longer.

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VSD-
Is that why it hurts so much?

Sorry, that's all I can say. For being selfish, for being a burden, for not being good enough.

Don't think.
I won't wreck my mind (and heart) thinking of all the possibilities. I won't...
It'll all amount to nothing in the end.
Think of a time when everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.