disappointment

i really need to find a gigging buddy. like, someone who enjoys going for gigs, and is usually free. :( or else i'll end up going for gigs alone, and moshing alone. people will think i'm crazy if i stand there alone, shaking my leg or something.

:( cedarians are so lousy, only a minority enjoy going for gigs. the only other person who will willingly go for a gig, is going to DXO (her friend performing). she invited me, but bah, i turned her down cos i wanted to watch AVA (whom i heard is pretty freaking awesome), caracal and bad obsession.

and the thing is, i don't have her contact details, and so, i can't tell her EH! WAIT, I DON'T THINK I WANNA GO FOR PWNAGE ANYMORE. i go with you to DXO!

and mervyn says i can hang out with him, but the thing is, i don't know him that well. and he has friends to entertain.

wah kauuuuzxzxz. sucks, i hate this man. veek is not going, and i doubt i will see chishun there. he has mid years, and then wtf i got no friends

ram's out with his family. and all my other friends are busy + not interested.

i am sad. why do i not have friends?

i don't want to scrap the idea of going to this gig. i seriously got myself excited over it since i learnt about it, and i really really want to go lah.

god, please stop me. i think i'm going to cry. coupled with the fact that someone's out to ruin my life, and this. wow, i need a breather from myself.

because i really hate that girl in the mirror.