i'll always know i'm not enough, to even make you think

xomg, i am frantic because i have no one to go to the gig with. that's what going to happen if you have a very small social circle. i need more friends :\ people i know are either 1) busy 2) not into going for gigs or 3) not interested in going out with an imbecile like me.

even that mervyn dude went offline before i could talk to him and ask him to entertain me during the gig. :( i am sad. gahhhh.

anyway, yesterday after school i walked out with cathlin, ruby, ravin, amadea and yiling. and then amadea, yl and i proceeded to raffles place macs to eat / drink. yl = pathetic cos she had only 50 cents. HAHA!

and then amadea went off to meet her boyfriend, while yl and i walked to fullerton hotel to play with the koi fishes. we stayed in the toilet for a super long time, talking about crap and then we walked to esplanade. we went to DXO for fun, and then we walked back to suntec to take the MRT to sengkang and vivo respectively.

i went to vivo to meet ryan + bengwei + cailing, and i drank some alcohol (bengwei complained, but then he relented) and i got high and started talking crap. and i wanted to do something but ryan told me not to, and then i wanted to really badly, but i didn't in the end. (cryptic).

bengwei's crazy. he said "a person who drinks, usually does it because he or she is sad and wants to forget something". i gave him an incredulous look, and said 'siao ah, i drink 1 bottle forget what?' but he kept persisting and asking me what's wrong. i think i'm a lousy, because i got light-headed just drinking a bottle of weak alcohol. :/ ryan says it's cause i drank it too fast, and on an empty stomach.

and then deb and khai rang, and asked me to head down to school for campfire, so i agreed, and then i proceeded to the MRT to go back to school, where i got high during campfire, and jumped around like a gigantic fat arsehole.

and azrina and i got sent up to dance to sexy back, i think i need to hide my face because my teachers and friends saw me dancing like some kinda elephant, omg. and instructor cheryl lee laughs VERY loudly.

after campfire, we went to PP macs to hang out, but i stupidly called my mom to pick me up and she came down super early, which caused me to go home earlier than the rest :( and then i was a bit sad and i felt really disgusted with myself because i ate a lot.

XOMG I AM FAT

i still have yesterday morning's noodles. haha, xomg fungus

i suxorz. but good for you, you seem to be doing better than me. but nevertheless, i still dislike you (to a large extent).