we've got each other and that's a lot.for love - we'll give it a shot.

random notes to self:

1) no more bingeing, jolyn. time for hunger strikes and lots of running around! i hate it when i eat a lot of crap and start feeling guilty and upset. and the dumbest thing is, i eat even more. and the vicious cycle repeats, until i feel so crap about myself, i go to sleep and die in my dreams. by that time, i'm too fat to fit into the coffin, they have to cremate me in a lorry.

2) i miss many people! a lot a lot! HAHA, JERLYN, ARE YOU READING THIS? :D and some others. gah. :( sigh.

3) i need a haircut, my hair is getting too long, too messy. i look like i belong to the !kung bushmen. the new shampoo does no help :/

4) i need new clothes. my clothes are getting boring. who's free to do some retail therapy with me?

5) the piercings are due during june hols. who wants to come along with me and watch me punch holes? don't think i'm weird or anything, but i think body mod is cool to a certain extent. like, tattoos and piercing your necks and chest areas.

6) i feel like moshing, i shall ask around about gigs this weekend. and deafcon III is coming. awesome. dragonforce! \m/ haillll

7) i got pwned again. :/ haha, i am so lousy, too naive and gullible. grah. and this is an "amusing" conversation. LOL you wanted it!

let down the defenses of your hurting heart. says (6:42 PM):
YOU MUST [BLOG]
THAT YOU MISS ME ALOT
let down the defenses of your hurting heart. says (6:43 PM):
haha and you love me alot
alot alot alot the most
Alexithymia / lights out guerilla radio! turn that shit up! says (6:44 PM):
haha ok ok

8) i suddenly remembered, i didn't take the "friday, i'm in love" poster from homeclub, and i'm freaking sad! gwahhh. why why why. the next time i return to home club will be probably 19301783 years later. :( and i lost my pink paper heart, someone find it for me.

9) wanna see something awesome?

YES! this is exciting. :) and pastor kong's sermon on thursday and friday. i think i shall go on thursday too, just in case! friday :DDD (ignore the lousy picture quality)

that's all that i can think of, and just that i hate being emo. because i know that it not only affects myself, it also puts distress on others, and make them hate me more. i sometimes wonder what i'm thinking, because i don't even know what i want. my mind is so messed up, i have conflicting thoughts. but i know He'll make it right for me. someday :)

woah-oh, livin' on a prayer!

=( i miss you! it's hard to forget.