I'll be going through withdrawal symptoms of you, for the one night we have spent

first week of school. same old faces, same old routine of getting up early in the morning at an ungodly hour. not that i'm miserable in school or anything, my friends are cool and awesome. i have this feeling teachers hate me and have a bone to pick with me. i'm not defiant or impolite or whatever they think i am on purpose.

anyway, i fucked up my common tests, and i was damn emo last night because of logarithm (which is a dumb subject, IMO) and some people. spider, mostly.

yesterday, i met up with iylia, penny, bryan &friends and mervyn, who left earlier. news of iylia's predicament spreads fast, and everyone wants to help. i can't help feeling so touched that everyone cares so much. it's like one biggggg family. didn't get home till around 9+, and i couldn't study. i've never mugged before, i realise. the last time i tried, i cooped myself up in the room and ended up warbling to songs on the iPod, and smsing poor souls. that was in sec 2. i can honestly admit, i didn't study for my PSLE and streaming. if you count studying reading your textbook the morning before, or scribbling stuff on paper, this explains the mediocre grades, no? i hope my O levels aren't gonna be like that.

today was cool, i planned on waking up at 3.30 to study log, but i, unfortunately, slept like a log (wtf, LOL. not funny). after school, i went over to rachel's house with cherie & gurvin. i played with her cats, and then we watched some german movie (R-rated). saw german's boys' asses, watched 2 girls kiss, drank yakult and then fell asleep towards the end due to exhaustion. i missed the last scene, when the girl slit her wrists. but she bothered to grab a pail to let her blood drip in, slowly.

Why does tonight have to end?
Why don't we hit restart,
And pause it at our favourite parts.
We'll skip the goodbyes,
If I'd my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and I ♥

honestly, i wish you wouldn't hurt me. we could stop time, you and i, and lie down under the starlit sky, with our dreams and conversations till the end of time.

No matter what, you will be loved by everyone cos your ruler is the Moon, and everyone loves the Moon. Well, you are a person who daydreams a lot, and you have very low self-confidence, you need backup for every move in your life. You are very much unpredictable. It means you do change according to times and circumstances, kind of selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talents. Very good at verbal communication, your attitudes are the like Moon, comes to gloom and fades away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be the next Mahatma Gandhi, peace-loving or you can be Hitler, who wants to destroy mankind and peace in your community and own home. If you have deep thoughts about your own, or believe in God, you can feel the difference which will make you stronger. Most of the time, your words are kind of would be happening, so without any knowledge, you can predict the situation. You will most likely become a poet, an author, or any artistic people. You are not strong in commitment, and find it hard to settle down and love someone truly. But that will change when you get married. If you're a girl, you will be a responsible woman in the family. But if you're a man, you will get involved in fights and arguments. You will sacrifice your life for the goodness of the family, and you are gentle, intuitive, compassionate, relatable to others, have a broad vision, a powerhouse behind the scenes and very well balanced.

sounds like me? i got it off somewhere.

& i found out i could kick khairiah's eyebrows, and xinyi, i don't want to get separated from you. evillll, why must we switch places?

this screenshot makes me smile. i love sharmila!

in case you can't see, it reads

"Hello Jolyn,you are beautiful & I love you so.

Ohh that is Jolyn and Karina by the way!And pretty much the most amazing people around!hehehe.And Jolyn we are all here for you!:D.I hope you find comfort in this friendship with the kimeks and cunts.lol.Yes we may be kimeks and we may be cunts but we shower you with fun,annoyance endless mindfucks and what not.hurhur."

i miss you