I don't ask for much, I just want you

I remember:

1) Shouting my lungs out for schoolmates during National T&F with Esther.

2) having dinner with Iylia, Sharmila Love, Pre, Prabs, Penny, Bryan and the birthday boy Mervyn (and Adriel too, twins!). The stories at the dinner table were damn sick, like taking craps in urinals, and mindfucking Iylia with Rosli Mansor/Marilyn Manson stories. And the shizznizz about Robert Plant! LOL, I swear, Iylia's damn blonde and cute.

3) playing badminton with Michelle, Gurvin and some VJC boys at Kembangan.

4) RHD - Dikir Barat performance in front of 18236193 people which I screwed up, cos I followed the person beside me, and the person followed the person beside, so on and so forth. But the class effort was good. I love our class ;D Borrowed some green sari shit and draped it over myself in the effort of 'dressing up' for RHD. Planned to stick out like a sore thumb with Xinyi and Inez actually.

5) watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with Lingyu, Deb, Khairiah and Cheryl at Dhoby, and I saw Pre! Lingyu was damn funny lah, shouting "RAWR!" at random strangers, and getting the what-the-fuck-is-her-problem look. Trying on "punk rock" clothes. Wtf. That night was a pretty screwed up one, I remember a phone conversation with Karina and Iylia, and all 3 of us were crying because we didn't want Iylia to leave for Vancouver. I swear, I'm gonna miss Iylia a lot a lot when she leaves at the end of the year. Pre's my new heroine, cos somehow she managed to convince Iylia to stay...until high school starts in Vancouver anyway.

6) All girls' outing at Tampines Mall with Val, Sharmila and Karina <3."Screw the universe!"' was damn funny, i spat out my morning yoghurt, and the chocolate milk tasted like shit. The sayang, sayang shit was uber funny and it gives me the heebie jeebies. YOU'RE CRAZY! (says it like Karina)

8) Meeting Iron Buddha + Claire after jamming, and then there was this passing out game, which got damn freaky after awhile. Like, watching your friends go into a weird dazed and confused (Led Zep) state, and start murmuring weird shit, drooling and then banging their heads on the floor is pretty scary. Dinner at Macs, and I got valuable advice today.
I am such a stupid fool for missing you.
If the person doesn't like you back, you move on, it's as simple as that. Don't put your soul or heart into it, you're only gonna get disappointed. It's better to just let go.

True, Mervyn's right. Anyway, not exactly word for word, but the gist of it.
A week and four days, I swear, I just can't quit you.
/

Emotions are for weaklings. Crying is stupid (but I still do it anyway).

The scars you see aren't as deep as the scars deep inside. That's what makes us all so screwed up.

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Some things that you do, cannot escape the scrutiny of everyone else's eyes. We all know that, don't we? And parents and adults, generally, they never trust kids to do anything right.

We aren't getting along well right now, or maybe we never did, I never held a proper conversation with you long enough to find out.

It feels damn fucking screwed up, this communication breakdown with almost everyone that I truly care about. :(
imissyou
[Emo vermin]

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I swear, I love Slutty Sharmila. :D. I heart Kimek Karina, Insemination Iylia, Vulva Val, Puki Pre and everybody else. <3>