so where were the spiders when the fly tried to break our balls?

the week has been alright, not my best, but nonetheless alright.

i remember puking at random bus stops after drinking lots of absolut vodka (raw) and jim beam whiskey (raw) and amsterdam, and floating into unconciousness near the esplanade. making friends with random strangers, getting home at 8am, and then running out at 2.

i remember tranny-watching, transformers at 0025 hours at cineleisure, and then drinking cheap gin mixed with orange juice. and trying not to fall asleep on the dusty ground of the skate park. sleeping till the afternoon, and then meeting people in town (because they felt like it).

i miss my wallet, but thankfully it's with ziyang.

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felt a bit down and moody today. i know you're highlighting this post, but i don't really care. sometimes i feel like i'm being forsaken, and taken for granted. i know how it feels, so i try not to let my friends feel that way. but at times it's not working, because 1) my friends don't appreciate this, and when they don't they make me feel fucking irritated, and then i tend to turn nasty. not as nasty as i want to though. 2) they don't fucking care about me. oh yeah. :/ 3) they probably don't know how hard i'm trying, because i'm not doing it good enough. as usual. i never seem to do anything right. and i'm not just talking about my friends, even the ones i treat more than friends, they don't fucking give a shit actually. well, "you don't know what you've got (till it's gone)" some rnr wisdom, yes? but i doubt i'm fit to say that, because i'm not very important. honestly, people toss me aside and they fucking forget about me until they want something. and i will try to not care about you, because it'll only end up in more heartache and pain. i always forget how you use and abuse me, because you make me so happy. but in the days of your absence, i feel like shit. nothing else matters (RNR)

went to taka with cheryl. cheryl's awesome lah. eh, gal-pal, i ishH LurBb Euu. thanks for listening, and making me laugh by falling off the curb. and i'm so sorry for dragging you all the way from orchard to somerset to dhoby ghaut.

i swear, happy soda is the answer to all of life's sorrows (temporarily). and you should've seen cheryl's face when she almost fell off the curb, almost leading to the near death of her ego. if she fell, i doubt she'll be able to show her face at far east ever again. ahhaha.

"i'll buy [insert item]....when i have the money!" favourite phrase siallll. vintage tapes, vinyl records, cute wallets, millions of albums. et cetera, et cetera. okay, i'll burn albums for cheryl when i get them. :D

YES CHERYL IS AWESOME. THANKS CHERYL, i swear, you are the kewllest for staying out with me, and talking to me about old school rock bands and all that shit. and discussing alcohol percentages and then looking for band teeshirts. awesome :]

kkkk cheryl is love. thanks!

highlighting this?

i'll never be good enough, will i?

"I'm not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I'm one of those people." - --

John Lennon