A thousand Xanax pills will make this go away

I have been deluding myself, and you're such a let down.

I. Cannot. Do. This. Anymore.

It's about time that I said goodbye.
I doubt if I can, but I never said I wouldn't try.
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Now's a good time to get pissed drunk. Passing out sounds pretty good actually!!

And maybe I should start saving up for my future endeavours. Like, nape/industrial/corset/hip/collarbone piercing. I've been thinking, so what if my hair covers my neck. I don't really give a shit. Hello adrenaline rush. I don't particularly like facial piercings, I like them better if I can hide them. Gee, nipple piercings are weird. Like Janet Jackson and her little 'wardrobe malfunction'. I AM NOT A FREAK.

I'm envious of people with perfect english and no grammatical errors to speak of. Like this certain girl's blog I found. Who uses words like 'indoctrinated' and 'pinnacle' casually? Even though I know the meanings, I probably won't be able to find a use for them. I am so jealous.

I think I've lost my mask of sanity, I feel like screaming my lungs out. I hope it rains, I like rain. People are so hypocritical. I think I'll grow paranoid and schizoid. Maybe one day you'll see me talking to myself, and then cutting off my ear to send to my lover (I cannot resist - Van Gogh is weird!). Anyway, 69 is my favourite number now. Thanks to a discussion - I realise I have 69 in my cellphone number.

Hideously skinny has a ring to it, don't you think? I wish to be hideously skinny. Not. We need to lose the junk in the trunk of the drunk. Wow. I begin to think I'm insane. Eyes of the insane. Scat, I've got school tomorrow. Lololololololol.

I don't really feel like laughing, in fact I think I'll do the opposite. Life is screwed, so am I.

Watched Wild Hogs. The movie made me feel like being a biker chick. I will ride around in my Harley, with my leather jacket (LOL condom: watch movie) and scream random profanities at non-bikers. Vroom, VROOOOOOM.

I can't sleep, being the hugeass loser than I am. Having discussions about life in general.

Oh me want Prozac Nation!

Well. Me go now. kthxbai. :( happy birthday, and I hope you're doing good. bye.