You and me, we're all disposable teens.

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I would seriously contemplate a Mohawk if I had straight hair. Too bad god decided to give me curls. My hair is such a disgrace. Too bad it's not 'emo' enough to cover my fat and disfigured face. Maybe I'll get dreadlocks - like a cyber goth, because I'm alternative (yeah right). K, whatever. As if I have the courage to do that. But honestly, I find the alternative lifestyles and cultures pretty intriguing. I heart goths.

My friend told me quite a bit about the punk anarchist traditions. They have cool rules, like "no stepping into fast food restaurants" (explains why they're skinny). I don't know if it's reliable, but he was an ex-punk, and a current skinhead. And I have to admit, I detest distasteful mixing and combining of cultures. An example would be the gothic lolita. Ugh. And I suspect emo is the subset of goth and punk.

I've got a spate of comments from my sister's friends saying "eh, your sister looks damn fierce!" I never knew, must be why I don't have prepubescent friends. Ah. Sorrow fills my heart. Woe.

Oh, recently a friend recommended a female fronted band doing melodic death metal. I admit, I have an unjustified prejudice against females fronting bands - only because they're all lacking in substance. They end up doing bubblegum pop oriented music that makes people's brains explode into rainbow chocolate rice. But surprisingly, in my (unwanted) opinion, I found it quite okay. I've heard of the band before and it didn't once occur to me they had a hot gore bitch who "eats men alive".

This post is damn random.

K, I really ought to leave the house to meet JacqK. ^^ Bye. Meowwww.

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Horoscopes are cool shit. Karina showed me a website, and I have to agree with some of the things they mentioned about Pisces. What's upsetting is they don't really write negative shit, like how Pisces are retarded pushovers who get used and hurt repeatedly because they're too dumb to know anything. I personally feel they are morons.

Pisces and Friendship:

Pisces will go out of their way to help a friend. They are extremely sensitive and loyal. They will take a friend's problem and make it their own and suffer with them. This is the weak spot of Pisces but any friend of this zodiac sign should know that although they are attracted to people with severe problems who desperately need help, this actually does more harm them good. Even though Pisces will offer to make everything right, do not allow them to take on all your problems because they will lose their identity in your situation. They need a strong positive friend to make them strong. Pisces like adventure, new situation and social events. A Pisces friend will always have something exciting in mind and it is a very fulfilling, long lasting friendship.

Pisces and Business:

Pisces does not take well to a position of leadership or high business person, they are too sensitive and lacking in self-discipline and lacking self-confidence for a positions such as that. What they are good at is is writing, acting, poetry, or being musicians. Pisces are excellent at anything that tugs at the heart strings and mystical/spiritual. They are extremely creative and can use their skills of creativity and their understanding of people to inspire others. Unfortunately, most Pisces take the easy way out in life and never attain the degree of fame that they possibly could, they have to stop self-doubting themselves because they are capable of being good role models and leaders to others, people do look up to them.

Pisces and Temperament:

The Pisces personality is hard to pin down, it is very mysterious and elusive. Pisces are molded by their surroundings, they incorporate their experiences and surroundings into themselves. They have extreme compassion and they feel the pain of others. If something is wrong in the world that affects them, it affects them deeply, they take it to heart and feel extreme feelings regarding the matter. When they are happy, they are extremely happy and when they are sad, they are extremely depressed.

Pisces Deep Inside:

Pisces have an intuitive and psychic ability more then any other zodiac signs. They trust their gut feelings and if they do not, they quickly learn to because they realize that their hunches are usually correct. Pisces downfall is their sensitivity and their inability to reject another person. They do not like rejection and they try to treat others the way they want to be treated so they will rarely say no to a person for fear of hurting their feelings. They will help another person with their problems and like to do so because making others feel good in turn makes them feel good. Pisces is the zodiac sign of self-undoing. People born under this zodiac sign are not susceptible to bad luck and unfortunate events, they bring them on themselves by overindulging, laziness and a knack for picking poorly suited partners and friends. They want people in their life who stir their emotions because this helps them to practice emotional stability. The inner conflict of Pisces is extremes of temperament and conflicting emotions. They are trying to pinpoint themselves on the real world while their spiritual world can cloud their vision, they will try to escape or avoid a situation instead of confronting it. Pisces eternal struggle is to learn to use their powers and their imagination in a positive, productive way and vying for emotional stability by not giving away their emotions to everyone else, they need to help themselves.

Pisces in a Nutshell:

Pisces is the sign of mysticism, mystery and the spiritual unknown. Pisces live in two worlds, the real world and the spiritual or mystical world where they interpret what they see into what they want. They do this to avoid all the realities of pain and suffering in the world. They have extremes of emotions and feel both good and bad intensively. Pisces have formidable intuitive ability. Most Pisces are somehow involved with occult or spiritualism. Pisces are very good at understanding people for they have the ability to delve into the psyche and see behind a person's motivations. Pisces are prone to drug addiction and indulging lifestyles because of their eternal search for themselves and their fear of confrontation and having to change a situation, also they justify drug use by allowing it to get closer with their 'spiritual selves'. Once they aware this is why they are doing it, it will be easier to kick the habit. Pisces are not the pushovers that they may seem, in fact they have strength of character and will stand up for what they believe in and and they can do hard work for something they believe in. They can be very lazy but only in matters that they do not care about. Pisces is the most sensitive of all zodiac signs.

What it's Like to Date a Pisces Woman:

Pisces women are very captivating and fascinating. She makes a man feel like a man because of her need for a protector and leader. She is charming, soft and feminine. The ultimate enchantress. She can see right through a man and she is not easy to fool, so any man better be straight with her and not lead her on, because instead of confronting him, she will simply disappear. She needs to nurture and will give the man orders, but only for his own good. She will make sure he is eating properly and getting enough sleep, sort of like a mother nurturing a child. What she needs in return is a man to protect and cherish her, make her feel like she is needed and loved. She might almost be clingy and dependent but never overbearingly. Her partner will become of better half. She needs patience and sympathy and you have to be gentle with her. Don't poke fun or tease and definitely do not reject her harshly because she can't stand rejection. She is extremely romantic and will lose herself in the relationship. The Pisces woman is the ultra feminine nurturer, the ideal woman for the right man.


How to Attract Pisces:

talk about spirituality, the occult, astrology, anything that is out of reach of the real world. They will easily get lost in a good conversation. Although they are attracted to people with severe problems who desperately need help, this actually does more harm them good. Even though Pisces will offer to make everything right, do not allow them to take on all your problems because they will lose their identity in your situation. They need a strong positive partner to make them strong. Pisces like adventure, new situation and social events and will be up to doing almost anything that you suggest. Make them laugh, they are usually melancholy and will be impressed if someone has the ability to make them laugh. They are not very conservative people so do not be afraid to talk about unconventional or strange things and tell them odd jokes, they will be impressed by that. They are suckers for flattery give them compliments and tell them in a roundabout way that you admire them. Be sensitive, generous and gentle, make them feel comfortable with you and make them feel good about themselves and all will be smooth sailing!

Pisces Erogenous Zone:

The feet are the most sensitive spot for Pisces. Massaging the feet and sucking on toes are usually Pisces favorite and will get them steamed up and ready for action.

Sex With Pisces:

Sex with Pisces is an emotional and physical experience, and if you allow it, it will be a spiritual experience as well. Pisces are very good at, and love role play. Acting fully in their roles. They like to seduce. Role play that you are in an old fashioned brothel and get them to seduce you, they love erotic games for they are able to get completely involved and lose themselves in the erotic play. Pisces likes risque encounters and offbeat activities. A very fun partner for those who like different encounters and physical sex.

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I'm sorry, I actually believe in this. Sappy motherfuck.

2nd time in 2 days, I should really get a grip.
Don't you know better than to trust that anyone would be there for you when you're down? I wish it would be drilled into my brain, how alone I actually am. Please be strong. I think of the number of times I typed out a message, a plea for help, and only to have it be deleted because I draw a blank of whom I can send it to. Gah, I hate myself. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate you Jolyn. I hate szjz. I hate KzAzMzCz.

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Goths are people who think about death a lot. They are usually seen as 'satanic', or have occult beliefs, like Wiccan-or-some-shit-like-that. They aren't though, have you heard of Christian Goths? Well, I have. They embrace the dark, alternative side of life. They might be seen as dangerous members of our communities, but noooo, they're gentle creatures. They rather commit suicide than homicide, because they embrace death "Join me in death". The truth is, they want to die, but they're too scared to do it themselves. I'm sorry, they aren't emo.

I-am-sick-I-want-to-leave-help-me-dial-9-1-1.

Jeez bye.

DIE LAH.

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