You want in to get under my skin, and I've got more friends like you. What do I do?

Sometimes you can't help being disappointed with people. They are often stupid enough to commit the same mistake twice, and they expect different results. Haven't they heard of 'once bitten, twice shy'? Obviously not. I can't believe how fragile our friendship is. Just like walking through a minefield. One step out of line, and you're gone. No second chances. How many times have we almost lost it all? We're always toeing the line. Friendships fraught with doubts and suspicions. I try to push things aside so I won't think about them. I'm happy....or at least, that's what I hope.
So close to eruption, don't expect to be safe in your safety zone.

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Sometimes I feel so fucking awkward around people. It's either I blend in, and become invisible, or I'll stick out like a sore thumb. Frustrating sometimes. I cannot decide whether I want to be a wallflower or someone who's in the limelight only because she's weird. Well, you cannot have your cake and eat it. (Lollll then why would you want the cake then?)

I have my good and bad days. Sometimes I find that I can connect with others very well, and other days, everything just ends with an awkward silence. It leaves me drained trying to think of things to fill in the blanks.

I apologise, sometimes I'm just not who you expect me to be.

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Eh, the school year has gone by very quickly!! School's out already, Megadeth tomorrow. I want to go for Black Sabbath as well. :\

I can't remember what I did during the week you know! My memory is failing me. :(

I remember Deafcon VI, quite impressive. Turnout wasn't so good though, but I got to spray shit onto people during Firebrands' performance!! Exciting! It was Pre's birthday as well.

Then uhhh, I remember watching Resident Evil: Extinction with Karina, Val and Evan. Luckily they didn't check ID, Val was the only unlucky one! But she's turning sixteen, so it's okay. Karina and I both got through though. Mature looking people!

Then I remember getting tickets with Bianca, eating Subway with Lingyu and Halimatul.

Clarke Quay with Iylia and Sharmila, lying on the ground, staring up at the sky and talking rubbish. "Axl Rose or Sebastian Bach?" "Drinking ___'s urine or ___'s cum?" "Threesome with 2 girls and a guy, or 2 guys and a girl?" A lot of weird questions thrown at one another. Some of the questions are really gross though. All Iylia's fault lah. Sharmila was being targetted. Sorry, we still love you many many many many!! Then, I went off to watch The Seeker: The Dark Is Rising. LOL. I am a chicken, I actually jumped during a scene. It reminded me a lot of Harry Potter though. But it isn't scary, even though at first I thought it was horror. Oh, I like cosying up with people :D Watch movie with me, someone!

Today was quite an uneventful day. I sliced my finger accidentally. Gross. Blood everywhere! Tell me, why am I so accident prone? Bridge, Boon's, singing stupid emo songs with Germaine, Halimatul, Lingyu, Cheryl, Khairiah. I miss Deborah :( Then Khairiah, Cheryl, Lingyu and I went to eat Sakae. I love sushi, just not sakae's. Playing footsy!!! Uhhh, after that we went shopping in the heartlands. Popular = cool shit, Minitoons = yuck. Lingyu left, Cheryl and Khairiah and I went Starbucks.

I am now a very broke girl. My parents are being assholes. In fact, the entire world is out to fuck me up.

I need to improve my grammar. Oh, someone send me very brutal metal songs!!! I want to channel my emotions into hatred and anger. I will be an angry girl from now on, no more sad emotional fucktard, SO FUCK YOU ALL NOOB HEADS.

K I fail in life.