Ready, sex, GO!

Deafcon 7 was the sex, I wore a dress, did anyone notice!!! Ya, k whatever, Jolyn. My neck was sore from headbanging to Cigarette Sex, Firebrands and Oshiego. Not very br00tal headbanging, cos I'm weak and false. I got to spray smelly, fake snow at people. In the process, I got covered in it. Smelt like shit after, which Rachel and I tried to rectify by spraying deodorant and powder.

During Oshiego's set, I was at the side, watching the metalheads do their thang. My first thought was: snakepit! They looked like a bunch of snakes writhing around. Fucking awesome. Again, I felt the power of music flowing through me. It touched the very loins of my heart. Made me want to join them, but then I realise - I'm not in proper moshing gear.

After that some of us left because 'no mood sia', the rest went Home Club to chillz. We opened a bottle of vodka and drank in the back alleys, where suspicious characters prowled. It wasn't enough though, so Yong Lian (of CigSex) bought a whole carton of beer. We played "I have/I never" and I guess we found out stuff about friends and strangers alike. The cops scare me! And I can't believe some of the things we do! LOL. Oh well, it was fun though. With Bunny, Adriel, Mervyn, Yong Lian, Mario and Rus?

The bus ride home in the wee hours of the morning was o_O It felt really long. Sorry and thanks to Mervyn!

The past few days have gone by in a blur, I honestly don't remember much. Just remember a lot of chilling done in town with Trish, Naomi, Val and Mervyn and different groups of people, and then watching movies: The Bee Movie and Stardust. Lazing around in Bunny's place at 4am in the morning and all that.

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Today was pretty unplanned though. Q's house for movies again. I've been doing that for the past 3 Tuesdays. Oh, I got bitten on a very sensitive spot. Ouch. LOL. Fast Food Nation totally turned me off beef patties and fast food restaurants. I felt quite disgusted when they showed scenes in which cows were hung by their hind hooves and slashed. Probably alive and kicking still. Torrents of blood came rushing down, and their brains were splattered on the ground. Not to mention, the fecal matter present in meat... I think I'm going to lay off eating meat for awhile. While watching this, I thought about cheap labour and exploitation of citizens of the third world countries. It's cruel and unfair. But essential, in a way.

Which makes me think again, to the other things in the world that are unfair, yet required. Pfft. Oh well. If we were to abolish cheap labour because of moral rights...Wouldn't it be almost Utopia already? If we didn't have third world countries, and all countries are equal, sharing the same currency...More than enough food to go around? Quite hard to stomach ah. Perhaps someday it'll be like that. But for now, the rich countries get richer, the poor ones simply get poorer. Pffft. You sink or swim. I believe I just typed a whole load of bullcrap. I feel quite embarrassed for myself.

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I had a talk with Iylia over MSN that opened up my eyes to quite a lot of things.

I actually teared a bit, and felt really touched by whatever she told me. Maybe some other day I'll elaborate...

Oh, I see part of our conversation up on Mervyn's blog, and her own blog as well.

*HUGS* Warm, fuzzy feelings.

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Okay I see a monster in the mirror. I need to drop 10kg and get some plastic surgery. Ughhhh.

I'm really confused by a lot of things. I don't know how I feel like nowadays. My moodswings are killing me, and there're many things I wish I could comprehend fully.

I don't know, sometimes I wish I could see this particular person everyday, and at times, the thought of seeing this person makes me feel scared....of what? I don't know. I don't know why I just typed all that.

It's so hard to move on when all that you want to do is go back.I miss you?

I think I've reached a stage in life when I try to minimalize my attachment to people and things, I think I'm quite inhuman right now. No feelings.