Abuse me...

I miss you. Am I...or have I, already lost you?
I'm scared.

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Remind me never to hurtle headfirst into moshpits without thinking twice. I think I am one throbbing sore manx. My arms are bruised like wtf, and every movement I make is.......total agony.

I tried to sleep off the pain earlier today. And I think it just got amplified, I don't know why. Ok, I know I got what I deserved, I'm fucking stupid, I shouldn't whine.

Shit. When you get fucking upset, what do you do?

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I went over to Iylia's house to see that silly girl who got injured due to a fall from skiing in Norway yesterday morning. Karina and Sharmila were there as well, and we ate pizza. After that we camwhored with Iylia's wheelchair (fucking weird prop/accessory). Karina made Sharmila "disappear" into walls. After that Karina and I cabbed over to DXO.

By the time the first band ended, my neck was sore. Like fucking sore. I persevered though, but at that time I thought it was a goood kind of pain. And I enjoyed it, the headbanging. It's like....getting into a zone.

Anyway, I crowd surfed a few times. Fucking funny. Shit, I hope the pictures Ken took turn out ok. I'll probably look like a sick fuck grinning madly. Like a paedophile.

After that something unexpected and shitty cropped up. I got a bit upset/sad/angry/frustrated et cetera, hence I escaped with Val, Karina, Bianca, Ryan and Echo to sit by the waterfront. Drank redbull and did some other shit. After that I went in for Bhelliom to pound people. I'm sorry to the girl whom I slugged. She landed in a heap on the floor. I felt really frightened then. But her hardcore dancing was idiotic. Really.

Oh, I got this overwhelming exhaustion coming over me after the set. But I managed to get 'in the zone' again for Ossuary. Elsa's got nice tattoos. =)

After that dinner with Bianca, Ryan, Visa, Trish, Chad, Alexisonfire, Weixiang, Mervyn, Nita, Val, Prabs, Ben, I forgot who else omgz.

Home after that cos I didnt fancy the idea of drinking with people I don't know well. And I was hurting like shit.

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Omg I'm sad.