Then I find myself choking on all my contradictions

Don't get your hopes up too high.





They'll push you off your pedestral to watch you shatter into a million p i e c e s .

*

I know I'm diving into my own destruction
I'm afraid of losing you. I'm afraid of losing. Developing a defense mechanism like pushing away anything that will potentially screw you up is quite the norm. I'm so fucking horrible. I miss you, I guess...even though I shouldn't be.
Life would be great with a case of russian vodka and some Martell.

I'm growing a bit woozy with the lack of sleep. Shit, waking up at 7am tomorrow won't help.