Over my head, better off dead

I feel fucking insecure.

But I know - nothing is permanent, nothing is fixed, nothing is forever. Change is inevitable, change is the only fucking constant. I'm like a fucking nomad. I am detached, I can always pack up and leave. It's simple. I don't want to build a temple on shifting sand. I don't need a fucking temple anyway.

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I'll ask you again: did you give me the respect I deserve?

You never try, and I won't anymore.

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I'm considering shifting to livejournal. I think the grass is definitely greener on the other side. I'll probably lock it up, because I'm such a neurotic bitch. I'm sorry, lololz. I'm fucking paranoid. At best, I would like to pretend I'm an elusive enigma. I know I fail miserably. Whatever.

I think I got a week left to study for my A Maths diagnostic test and attempt to complete my god damn homework. Yay. I can't believe how fast time flies. Did I mention how I fucking dread 2008?

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Anyway, it's all a blur. Karina love is back from Thailand after spending a month away. I missed her lots! I'm glad to see her again. (inserts hearts)

One night last week, Trish and I went sheesha-ing at Arab Street with some of the 9 O Clock members. Then drank till 5am. Tumultuous emotional rollercoaster rides! :\ And peeing in public isn't very glamourous, is it?

I remember watching Mervyn get his hair done with Mark and Charles, whom we met randomly at Orchard. It was more of a coincidence, as with Ben. You should've seen Mervyn. He got his hair shorn off "as a tribute to Nigel", who recently reported into NS. :(

Then just last night, I met up with Val, Alex, Chad and WeiXiang at Cine. Haven't seen the boys in a long time - since Lime Sonic Bang? Then I watched them eat at Pastamania, before we headed to Taka to meet up with Sharmila, Evan, Pre, Karina, Trish and Mervyn. Somehow we ended up eating Mos Burger at some random stairwell. Then Karina, Evan and I headed over to her place to spend some quality time with Karina.

Mervyn came after, and Evan left :( We had a movie marathon - watched Superbad, Balls of Fury, Another Gay Movie, Kickin' It Old School. I fell asleep during Kickin' It Old School. I felt it was boring, hence I slept. However, Another Gay Movie was fucking awesome. LOL shrivelled, wrinkly dicks. Mervyn told me a creepy clown story when we were out in the middle of the night.

Balcony with Karina and Mervyn was creepy as well. Ghost stories :O We slept at 6, before waking up at 11 to head to Parkway to watch Karina get her tongue pierced. Awesome-o.

Met Val, Adib, Queen and Claire at Cityhall. Fucking hell, Adib was damn gung-ho. He pierced his own tongue in the male toilet. Queen, Karina and I snuck in. I got looks from the Indian lady, when I asked "Can I go in to see?" I think she thought I meant me looking at male private parts. Misunderstanding. Omgggg.

Watched Adib do it in some random male toilet we barricaded while others waited outside. He was bleeding a bit, but slobbering like a rabid dog. Fucking weird.

Then we met Girl and Ariff. I tried to get my industrial piercing. Places I checked = too expensive / not available. Fuck.

Went to Far East to meet Pre. Ate and scooted over to Heeren to find Ben. Then Dhoby Ghaut to meet Trishyyy and 9 O Clock. Ate Ben & Jerry's at the Cathay. YUM. Trish, Ariff, Adib and I went to some handicapped toilet to help/observe Adib change his tongue stud from a bigger gauge one to a smaller one. 1.6 to 1.2. Yeah manx. Pro

Hmm, I wanted to join Trish and go drinking with 9 O Clock tonight. But I don't think I can withstand staying out for longer than 48 hours with a heavy bag. Hope they have fun, getting tipsy on Corona.

(I'm sorry, I like blogging in details!!!!!)

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I want ear spirals! :)

Omg, the ever accumulating wishlist syndrome.

I'm a fucking copycat.
nobody's original anymore. :\

Looks like I'm fake -
Just like you.