R.I.P

Why won't it rain?

I want thunderstorms.

Bright bolts of lightning streaking across the velvet night sky. Clouds shrouding the bright moon... The smell of rain all around. Loud, deafening claps of thunder. Pitch darkness until the next bolt of lightning strikes, zigzagging to make contact with earth.

I want to snuggle under my comforter and fall asleep to music playing on my iPod. When it runs out of battery I'll listen to the raindrops pattering against the windows and the thunderclaps...until the sandman comes and lays me down to sleep.

I want everyone to disappear - I want the whole world to stop moving.

I am not ready. I am not enough.

Please let it all come to an end.