Still I'm sad...

I have never and will never hate you. Or anyone else. All this while I've lied to myself... The only thing /person I wanted to destroy was myself.

I'm not asking for great riches and wealth, or great success in life (but I wouldn't mind)- I'm only asking for salvation and the ability to make myself comfortably numb. Is it too much to ask for?

Can you teach me the art of perfect apathy? Then I can choose to ignore my heart and blank out pieces of information that I feel are detrimental to my emotional and mental health.

Save me...

Life goes on; so yes, close your eyes, take a deep breath and walk on.

"Go away, just go away."

Rip that mass of muscle out- the unyielding one that despite being battered, bruised and broken multiple times still beats and bleeds all the same. Cradle it safely in your arms, it's not safe with anyone else. Throw it in an incinerator and watch it go up in flames.

Now at least you know it'll always be safe.