My heart is cold now

A friend's going through a pretty rough patch right now - and there's nothing I can do to help ease the pain. I'm so sorry, I wish it never had to be like that... Be strong, we'll be behind you all the way.

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The examinations will commence in less than 24 hours. All the best to everyone taking the paper. Hopefully my last minute cramming will be of some help.

And... happy birthday to Sam. :)

Somehow, the bar feels like home. I go there way too often for my own good. It's so fucking awesome when the bartenders put on a great song and the entire bar sings (or rather, shout) along.

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I never really understood the fragility of life until recently. It's hard to believe such things can happen. Maybe it's not appropriate for me to get angry with god. I refuse to capitalize the 'g'. I feel so subdued and... numb right now. Maybe it won't really hit me until much later - I think that's how it is for me sometimes... Or maybe I'm just about almost dead inside.

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Hellcat/

No words can express how afraid I am that someday you'll leave me behind.

So few people I truly care about- I wish that I had the power to make them all stay. Or maybe it's my fault if they don't - I don't have the holding power to make them stay. No matter what they say, I know they'll leave me someday.

You know you can't say anything when you love someone more than you hate your loneliness and pain.